It was too beautiful today....

...to be as grumpy and cynical and anxious as I was. Why couldn't I be grumpy on some of the rainy days?

I am wanting to find 'the cause' of my funk, but also want to not fall into a 'rumination' cycle.

Having a bad day happens... it doesn't signal a fall into depression.

I've worked hard all week. Three days of good thinking, good working, great choices... leading my life, not my life leading me.

And the sun came out, and every corner I turned felt cloudy and heavy.

Well, maybe I feel better now that I've thrown up in my blog.